I didnt go to work yesterday. Health reason, enuff said. Was watching the TV when Clay Aiken came about belting Invisible (or something). I'm not big on cute boy singer like him, but this song caught my attention. I listened carefully to the lyrics and i know it's about a guy admiring a gal and how he wishes that he was invisible so that he can get closer to her eventho she doesnt know of his presence (or existence). sad. have you ever been in this situation? Having a crush on somebody and dare not to try for you know you have no chance. It is ok if it's only a light crush but what if it's a head over heel crush?


When i was in college during my matriculation, it was an in thing to have a crush. Our residential college was an old college in UM where female students outnumbered their male counterpart. We were just a bunch of highschool leavers without any transportation. We barely got out of college, everynite we would hang out at a warung within the college vicinity. Seriously boring. So almost everybody developed a crush for -just anyone- there's not much choice, even the ugliest of senior had his own admirer :P Of course we were not serious about it, just to add spice and excitement in our monotonous life.


However, one of my friends fell so hard for a hot senior. He was a hotshot in college who didnt give a rat ass about us, the humble freshies. Very the kerek one. Everytime he passed us by we would struggle to keep a straight face while simultaneously kicking our feets under the table. And my friend would malu-malu kucing and says, "jangan la... dia tu heartless". She had a locket shaped of a heart. Cut the guy's picture (which i'm sure she got from a group picture in some club project) and stuck it there. I know she did it for fun but i also knew that she really liked that guy. We encourage her to make herself noticed instead of just staring from afar. My friend, FYI, is an attractive smart girl... admired by many but never paid any attention to her admirers. Maybe the best part of having a crush is the thrill of the chase. She didnt want to appear terhegeh-hegeh but she wanted to be noticed. So how? I dont quite remember how it actually started byt i think it was a muffin that get her noted. What on earth does a muffin has anything to do with the union of these two people? Simple. In one of her 'lucid interval' she got the courage to dedicate him a muffin.


Things started to roll pretty smoothly after that. Not fast, but smooth. Finally at our college dinner the guy approached her for a snap. We all watched from afar like a mother watch her daughter goes to prom with a boy for the first time. We dont know what exactly attracted him about her maybe the fact that she's spunky and made the first move appeals to him. To cut the story short they dated each other for almost 5 years before calling it a quit (but that's beside the point).


What i'm saying is, if you like someone, taking into culculation some external factors depending on each individual situation, i think generally u should make them know. Expressly or impliedly. Use your discretion not to scare them off. Dont be sorry or dont let yourself be in a situation where you constantly ask yourself what if? One is never too good for another nor not good enough for anyone. U might be Siti Nurhhaliza's dream guy (ye, contah saya poyo tapi paham what i mean kan?) Feelings is subjective, therefore dont assume too much. It's good to have basic presumption but dont let it stop you from trying. Preparing for the worst is good but dont undermine yourself.


Go on. make that move now and for godsake JANGAN LA JADIK INVISIBLE MAN. Just try, if dont make it, be sad for a while and move on. Dont dwell in self-pity. It's their loss not yours.